☆Wednesday, May 20, 2009
oh god. someone up there help me please.
i am facing a huge dilemma.
okaye,
two dilemmas actually. one is a more realistic problem, and the other's kind of, well, frivalous in comparison XD
so yes, back to my dilemmas.
number one, ntu has sent me an email asking me to go down for a scholarships interview.
but i'm
a little, rather, pretty, kind of almost sure that i wanna go nus. i am also extremely kiasu and think that its really wasted if i don't go down for it. and the online appraisal ms ouyang wrote would go to waste. so being the disgusting procrastinator i am, i kept putting this off right from the very first day i saw the email. and wow, before i could even realise it, time flew past and
today is the freaking deadline for me to indicate my response. and ntu even called me during lunch today to ask me about it. the conversation went sth like this:
me: hello?
ntu: hi, i'm calling from ntu regarding the scholarships interview. your timeslot is actually blablabla. erm, have you checked your email?
me: (panics) erm, no.. i haven't checked my email lately. (smiles guilty-ly to self)
ntu: oh ok, its actually scheduled for you on blablabla. can you make it?
me(in my mind): oh dear. oh no. shit.howhowhow.
me: erm, is it okay if i go and check my email first about the details and i reply you by mail?
ntu: oh sure. please do so by today alright? today's the deadline.
me(in my mind): shitttttttttt ;__;
me: oh sure! thank you very much!
ntu: thanks.
(hangs)
hahahahah i am such a horrible girl. but i'm still considering so i really didn't know how to reply his question! :/ so i thought the best way was to feign ignorance. i ought to get shot, i know XD
i've consulted a few people and they all think i shouldnt go for it since i'm going nus. but i can't prevent myself from being greedy and kiasu! :( and yes, i admit, i'm very auntie. urghhh. okay somehow once i've typed this out and reflected on my actions this dilemma is kind of uncalled for and really kind of stupid. but i'm kind of lazy to go for the interview, and i kind of know that i will not go ntu. but i'm still kiasu.
sigh. but something in me tells me that i will end up not going cos
its on a monday morning,which means i have to take leave, plus its in some ulu area i'm very lazy and am reluctant to go prepare for the interview.
(sighs)
okay on to dilemma number two. XD (which everyone will roll their eyes at and not bother reading on)
i feel like shipping in this very wonderful arashi concert dvd (Arashi Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo) because its really really nice to watch. and the concert venue is like at kokuritsu, the national stadium and its the place where tokyo held the tokyo olympics back in 1964. and they're the third group to have performed there after SMAP and dreams come true, both very big names in the music industry. so it's like something huge. its a milestone! plus, all the songs and stage lightings,settings etc were so amazing! the behind the scenes was really interesting too! and how do i know all this? cos i've watched the whole thing online before. (faints)
so having watched it before, i know exactly how fantastic it is. if i ship it in, it wont be anything fresh anymore since i have watched all the contents. but its so fantastic that i wanna own it. it's about S$46 though and i don't know if i will regret buying it. i mean, there's only so many times that u can continue to rewatch a concert dvd, right?
asdfghjkl i dont know if i should buy it or not. (pulls hair)
it'd be nice to watch them on the big tv screen as compared to my tiny computer monitor though.
(sighs again)
why do i even bother to think so much. T__T it's making my head hurt with relatively unnecessary worries and considerations.
Labels: arashi, rantings:personal, university matters
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☆Tuesday, May 12, 2009
i'm back to blog(again!)
mostly cause im really kind of bored and i dont wanna start on a new drama cos i'll sleep at unearthly hours of 2/3am and i wont get enough sleep
and i'll be like a zombie the next morning
so to pass time, i'll blog
hahahaha
i think i shall talk about my job (:
time really flies past damn fast and i hardly feel it
its been about five months since i started working in BCA hahah
it hasn't been particularly exciting
well, the admin work itself is absolutely boring. i mean i have to check and key figures over and over every single day
but i'm glad i got the opportunity to work there
for one, i feel kind of useful. like i have my own responsibilities, i take charge of the work i do and am able to answer directly to my superiors when they question me about anything under my charge
which makes the job kind of satisfying in its own sense i guess
and when i find discrepancies in the data and stuff i feel a tiny bit of satisfaction that i have helped to prevent some company from being billed wrongly and stuff like that.
so if i look back i haven't exactly been sitting in my cubicle, doing nothing but growing fat(ter) but i'm kind of helpful. at least a little.
self-affirmation aside, my superiors and colleagues are really quite nice to me
the younger ones give me advice about university stuff
and the older ones(aka aunties) teach me about office politics(eurgh), what to look out for when director is coming, who are the nosey parkers and busbodies in the office whom i should look and for and stuff XD
and the uncles.. dont care much about me but still treat me nicely. hahaha one of them even offered me his umbrella when i was walking back from amoy to office cause it was raining. and i was quite shocked cos he's normally quite fierce.
plus there's this really cute old uncle! (whom only jasmine and karen will know who i'm talking about XD)
and they generally close one eye, or even both eyes when i come into office late/come back from lunch late/surf the net during work/use the photocopier and printer for my own purposes.
hahahah i sound like a horrible staff to hire XD
and we always have department birthday celebrations & lunches
my fellow temp who sits next to me also helps the day to get past faster cause we can talk and laugh about stupid things we've encountered.
so basically, while my pay there is not fantastic ;__;
it is overall a rather interesting and worthwhile experience i guess
plus i got lucky(once again) cos i got posted to one of the more amiable and friendly departments so at least i dont get scolded or snubbed at or anything
i have about another one month and a half to go at BCA.
who knows, maybe at the end of it i might actually feel a little reluctant and upset to leave ;)
Labels: rantings:work
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☆Sunday, May 10, 2009
i am having a horrible headache.
oh my gosh its unbearable x.x
its the same kind tht i had in j2 when i felt like my brain was contracting and my skull was squeeeezing my brain in so hard
omg help help.
i think it has to do with the weather recently.
i need some herbal tea. and i'll get some at amoy tmr. i'll get the most bitter tea they have.
omggg headache please disappear.
oh a not so painful note, i got my very first external hard disk!
its 320gb! : DDD
which is 10 times my antique computer's memory space
and its the portable kind so it's smaller than my palm and i carry it to office to load my videos into my mp5 thingy which can play videos :D
i am now a certified fangirl :D
i am downloading something everyday hohoho
... which might be a bad thing cos i spend my time on the train watching arashi videos
which are so freaking stupid and hilarious i cant help but laugh while watching
and even though i make it as discreet as possible,
well, its still not very discreet.
so please, if you see me on the train holding a small rectangular thing with my earphones on and grinning away at my small mp5, please do not be alarmed.
i'm not crazy(yet) but arashi is really too amusing <3
and another piece of extremely shocking news is that.
i got into nus law school.
never ever ever imagined that i would ever get in.
i mean, i'm like not very intellectual, am doing something unproductive most of the time, speaks chinese 80% of the time(the singaporean way, not the china way) and probably 47962956023470274 other things that will crush ur image of a typical law student.
but gah, i'll treasure this chance really well.
i admit i'm really lucky most of the time(and luckier than i deserve really) and i thank all the gods up there for looking over me everytime
i'll study hard! i really will!
i'll limit my youtube-surfing and drama watching
and spend more time studying haha
cant imagine myself as a law student, but well, we'll take things a step at a time i guess :)
ok i'll go and sleep my headache away now x.x
Labels: rantings:personal, university matters
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